Post by Allen Walker on Mar 6, 2009 15:45:43 GMT -7
There it was. The shadow that continued to plague him. The dark being that had plagued him for the past who-knows how many months. It was true that he’d grown somewhat used to it, but could he ever really grow completely used to that devilishly smiling figure that looked at him from behind his own reflection? He looked over his shoulder to make sure that the figure of the 14th wasn’t actually behind him. He sighed in relief when it turned out that he was just being somewhat paranoid. But was it really paranoia? Could it be that there was actually a soul standing right behind him? The thought sent shivers up his spine as he turned away from the mirror. No, it was probably all in his head. After all, that was where the 14th’s memories were implanted...
Allen shook his head, trying to clear the constantly looming thought from his mind. The figure was reminder enough of supposedly what was to come. He needn’t be brooding over it as well. ...But that was really hard when one couldn’t look at one’s own reflection without having to see what one was to become on top of everything. He’d made a vow to fight to keep himself who he was until the very last moment. Yet each day he could feel his own self, who he knew he was, slipping away out of reach. It was gradual. It was slow. But it was happening. How could he keep fighting if he couldn’t even hold onto what he had left? How could he continue protecting the akuma and the humans if he couldn’t even protect what was left of his personality?
"Arrgh!" The bean sprout grasped the back of his head. Kanda was rubbing off on him, honestly! This wasn’t like him, to be this broody! Yet here he was, skulking around his room like that straight-cut fringe! He was probably just hungry. It was morning, and he had yet to eat his 50 courses of Jerry’s cooking. Yeah, that was it, he was hungry. Once he got eating and talking to his comrades, he’d be okay. Lavi always cheered him up and Lenalee was always there to smack the sense back into him. Crory would probably be awake enough to either slap him out of this state of mind, if Lenalee wasn’t able to and Miranda...well, Miranda was Miranda. She had enough of her own problems to deal with, without having to deal with his brooding as well. She appeared to be getting better self esteem-wise, but there was the constant possibility of her slipping back into her former state of mind.
After putting on his uniform, Allen headed out into the hallway of the ancient cathedral. As he treaded down the corridor, he began to focus on other things, such as what the next mission would be, where they would be sent, and how he could show-up Kanda. As he continued thinking, his earlier thoughts left his mind completely. Or so he would have liked to have thought. They never completely left. They were always tugging at him from the very furthest corners of his mind. Somewhere in one of those corners, the shadowy figure of the 14th Noah smiled at his to-be host’s futile attempts to retain who he was. The naïve boy would fall sooner or later. It was inevitable.
Allen shook his head, trying to clear the constantly looming thought from his mind. The figure was reminder enough of supposedly what was to come. He needn’t be brooding over it as well. ...But that was really hard when one couldn’t look at one’s own reflection without having to see what one was to become on top of everything. He’d made a vow to fight to keep himself who he was until the very last moment. Yet each day he could feel his own self, who he knew he was, slipping away out of reach. It was gradual. It was slow. But it was happening. How could he keep fighting if he couldn’t even hold onto what he had left? How could he continue protecting the akuma and the humans if he couldn’t even protect what was left of his personality?
"Arrgh!" The bean sprout grasped the back of his head. Kanda was rubbing off on him, honestly! This wasn’t like him, to be this broody! Yet here he was, skulking around his room like that straight-cut fringe! He was probably just hungry. It was morning, and he had yet to eat his 50 courses of Jerry’s cooking. Yeah, that was it, he was hungry. Once he got eating and talking to his comrades, he’d be okay. Lavi always cheered him up and Lenalee was always there to smack the sense back into him. Crory would probably be awake enough to either slap him out of this state of mind, if Lenalee wasn’t able to and Miranda...well, Miranda was Miranda. She had enough of her own problems to deal with, without having to deal with his brooding as well. She appeared to be getting better self esteem-wise, but there was the constant possibility of her slipping back into her former state of mind.
After putting on his uniform, Allen headed out into the hallway of the ancient cathedral. As he treaded down the corridor, he began to focus on other things, such as what the next mission would be, where they would be sent, and how he could show-up Kanda. As he continued thinking, his earlier thoughts left his mind completely. Or so he would have liked to have thought. They never completely left. They were always tugging at him from the very furthest corners of his mind. Somewhere in one of those corners, the shadowy figure of the 14th Noah smiled at his to-be host’s futile attempts to retain who he was. The naïve boy would fall sooner or later. It was inevitable.